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I am done.
I've given up.
I'm through...
I am tired of trying,
tired of crying and
tired of people like You...
In all my miserable life,
people have kicked me,
treated me like dirt...
Only a few have gained my trust and my heart.
But then soon they too stabbed me in the back,
twisting it to the hilt, opening up old wounds...
To watch me bleed out slowly in agony,
their stained hands still holding the blade,
as my blood drips to the cold hard cracked floor...
Each time with the most wicked of smiles,
as if their joy is to torment and upset me.
To make me suffer and hurt more than the last...
Each one had known the pain I harbored,
from past failed relationships with no love.
Each promised to treat me better, to be different...
But in the end they were just as bad,
as the ones that came before them
and some times even much worse...
They used and abused me.
Kept me around as a rebound
and then tossed me away like trash...
To ignore me completely,
never to speak to me again,
as if to wipe me from existence...
I'm only good for a short distraction,
to buy them things that they wanted
or to get away from their family...
Never am I loved for me,
for what I can provide
or what I can do...
God forbid I can't play the guitar,
or have my own family to share,
or vast wealth to give away...
Near or far, younger or older,
it makes no difference,
it never works out...
I try to be me, but I am not good enough.
I try to be someone else and it is the same.
So screw it! What is the point!?
People tell me,
never to give up,
never be beaten...
But being rejected
time and again,
does nothing for me.
So I resign myself to my fate.
I am abandoning all hope,
needs, dreams and desires...
If I am going to suffer,
and feel worthless,
I am going to do it on my own...
No more thoughts of You,
no more plans for the future
and no more caring for anything...
I'll be alone.
I'll live alone
and I'll die alone...
I hope You're happy.
I hope you are All happy.
Cause I'm not and never will be...
I Quit.....
I've given up.
I'm through...
I am tired of trying,
tired of crying and
tired of people like You...
In all my miserable life,
people have kicked me,
treated me like dirt...
Only a few have gained my trust and my heart.
But then soon they too stabbed me in the back,
twisting it to the hilt, opening up old wounds...
To watch me bleed out slowly in agony,
their stained hands still holding the blade,
as my blood drips to the cold hard cracked floor...
Each time with the most wicked of smiles,
as if their joy is to torment and upset me.
To make me suffer and hurt more than the last...
Each one had known the pain I harbored,
from past failed relationships with no love.
Each promised to treat me better, to be different...
But in the end they were just as bad,
as the ones that came before them
and some times even much worse...
They used and abused me.
Kept me around as a rebound
and then tossed me away like trash...
To ignore me completely,
never to speak to me again,
as if to wipe me from existence...
I'm only good for a short distraction,
to buy them things that they wanted
or to get away from their family...
Never am I loved for me,
for what I can provide
or what I can do...
God forbid I can't play the guitar,
or have my own family to share,
or vast wealth to give away...
Near or far, younger or older,
it makes no difference,
it never works out...
I try to be me, but I am not good enough.
I try to be someone else and it is the same.
So screw it! What is the point!?
People tell me,
never to give up,
never be beaten...
But being rejected
time and again,
does nothing for me.
So I resign myself to my fate.
I am abandoning all hope,
needs, dreams and desires...
If I am going to suffer,
and feel worthless,
I am going to do it on my own...
No more thoughts of You,
no more plans for the future
and no more caring for anything...
I'll be alone.
I'll live alone
and I'll die alone...
I hope You're happy.
I hope you are All happy.
Cause I'm not and never will be...
I Quit.....
Literature
Words Hurt
Words Hurt
Hit me one more time
Hit me again
Push me around
On the floor
Down the stairs
It hurts less than your words
So kick me
Bruise my skin
But don’t call me names
‘Worthless, ugly’
It causes too much pain
I love you I really do
I’ll take the abuse
And be your punch bag
But please keep your words
My head can’t take it
My mind won’t survive
The truth....
It destroys me.
Literature
Pressure
Pressure:
You try to breathe, but you're barely breathing,
You can't think clearly; you can barely speak.
Your mind is filled with needless thoughts.
Your cheeks are red and feverish...
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You know what you must do,
But you can't bring yourself to do it.
Instead you jump into a thousand distractions...
Mindlessly seeking the thrill of the 'anything',
You cringe at the progress of time on the clock.
And with lips gone dry from an internal hell-fire
You continue to evade what you cannot face...
-Chen Yuan Wen, 22nd June 2013
Literature
Take It All Away.
There’s a tear between each smile and a fracture on my heart
And a thousand feelings breaking me and tearing me apart
Knowing when it’s over I may lose my sanity
Embrace the mess I am and the storm inside of me
In the dark I have a chance to fight away my problems
To ignore them all away instead of trying to solve them
All I saw when I looked back was a mass of insecurity
Laying waste to who I am and ripping at the seam
Lowering my already non-existent self-esteem
And I couldn’t help admitting I’m a self-made failure
Walking a broken path as a second-hand savior
And it all adds up to nothing; me in a nutshell
Yankin
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this is so sad.. but I can relate to this and thnat feeling is horrible i know everybody will tell you not to give up and such.. same here but.. I know these words are just words but everybody wants to support you in this..